Just yesterday I was driving in my car, that I did not pay for, thinking about how irritating it is that I haven’t been able to fix the big dent in the front of the bumper.
As the day went on I found myself trying to decide what to do for dinner. Irritated that I have nobody at home to cook for me since my mom is out-of-town on business I decided to get some fast food. I sat in my car legitimately frustrated because I really wanted Panera but did not want to get out of the car to go in and order it.
Today I went grocery shopping, frustrated that my brother spent $20 of the $100 my Mom left us for groceries I did not think I would be able to get a weeks worth of groceries with $80.
“Why does my life have to be so complicated?!” I thought to myself. Angry at the fact that my life is as difficult as it is.
Then, as I was driving home tonight, I noticed a women. She was clearly homeless with a blue beaten up pillow in her left arm and her hands full with the bags that carried her few belongings. She was walking alone in the middle of the night. She was not smiling but she was not crying either, she was just being. I noticed as the light turned green that she was simply paying fine attention to her surrounding. Reading all the signs on the buildings around her.
She did not seem happy, but she did not seem sad. She was just there.
As I continued my journey home I prayed. It was a simple prayer, asking God to cleanse me of my lack of greatfulness.
I have not had the easiest of lives, but I have it pretty good off.
No, I have it really well off.
I have a Mom that loves me with all her heart. I have a roof over my head and clean clothes on my back.
I have a warm bed to sleep in and food on my plate. I have family and friends that I know care for me more than I can explain.
But greater than all of that I know God.
I thank God for putting that women in my life, even if we did not exchange words she taught me too appreciate every little thing that I have because my life, it isn’t too bad at all.
I can only pray that that women comes to know and love the God that loves her with all His heart.